the perks of being a Wallflower

hi
so i'm going to start posting again after.. well.. about two and a half month since my last post
and for the record, i'll begin writing my post in english, FULLY. no manglish
not because i'm great in english, in fact i'm sure you may already spot some grammar mistakes
(well, typical malaysian) sorry for that
that's why i'm starting to write in english. to improvise, and getting familiar with english

as for now, i have finished my degree, and currently unemployed for.. about 3 months
that's a very very very long holiday for me since.. i don't know
i can't recall the last time i have such a looonnng holiday *lol
not because i'm lazy (although i did enjoy myself at home)
it's just that i don't get any offer yet
i do went to some interviews, but still no answer
so i guess i somewhat don't pass those interviews
well it's ok though. at least i got the experience

em actually the real reason i start to blog again is because i just watched "The Perks of Being a Wallflower"
i have watched the movie before, but then i watch it again today
it's a story about charlie, a freshman, who is a wallflower, and then he makes friend with seniors at his high school
fyi, a wallflower is someone, who sees everything, knows everything, but does not say a word. they are shy and have a social disease. they cannot handle having someone pay attention to them even though they crave it as much as everyone else
(i tried to google the simplest definition of wallflower, so i hope u could understand)

somehow i feel connected to the main character (probably because we have the same birthdate. haha)
i can't judge myself but i guess i am somewhat a wallflower
and i think being a wallflower might be a bad thing, hence the title "the perks of being a wallflower" which means the benefits/good/advantages of being a wallflower
maybe its because a wallflower is a shy, socially awkward person, and that he don't have many friends
but not that i don't have friends. i do have many friends who support me all time, and always there in the hard time
and yet u ask me why i confess that i am a wallflower? haha. ok, then, i'll say that i USED TO BE a wallflower

it's not every time you can hav ur friends to stand by u, for example when u hav to move to another country, because ur dad have to immigrate or something
then u have to leave ur friends, start over at the new place, with no friends
where all the people there already knew each other, and u are the only one alone by urself
too shy too mingle, and afraid if u don't fit with them
well, i used to be that kind of wallflower
and it's kind of lonely to be alone all the time
but u know, a wallflower will not forever be a wallflower
as time passed by, though u're not aware of it, u've already made many friends
friends who make u laugh, share good and bad moments with u, hear ur problems, and all that
friends will stay friends, but they can't be with you forever
ur future will take u to a different path from ur friends
and then u will become a wallflower again

so my point, it's ok actually to be a wallflower
u get to observe, learn about people, their characteristics, behavior
but as i said, a wallflower will not forever be a wallflower
because u'll always make new friends to add to your contact list and fb's friends
so, appreciate ur friends. all of them
peace, and spread the love :)

p/s: phewww~ using fully english, it's like writing an english essay all over again. but u know, there's google translate and else.. haha. thanks for reading though :)

SMI '09-'13 Hall of Fame

3 Simple Rules

THREE SIMPLE RULES IN LIFE

-copied from 9GAG-

Drebar Terjun

this morning kena hantar my lil' sis pegi sekolah. tengah syok-syok tidur then die kejut pukul 8 pagi. not usually my wake up hour. tak pasal-pasal dah kena jadi drebar terjun.
so just cuci muka and then start enjin kereta. dah la tak gosok gigi. lepas tu dengan baju tidur and seluar track awan nano nye. tapi tak kisah lah... dalam kereta je pn. mata ni pun tak boleh bukak sepenuhnya time driving tu. still dalam mood mamai lagi. luckily selamat hantar and balik rumah.

by the way, last monday pergi barber shop. kedai gunting rambut india. aku tak berapa suka pergi saloon. they charge mahal just to cut your hair. i can even do it for free. tapi tak kemas la. haha
so back to the story, aku dah rimas rambut panjang-panjang ni. then suddenly i thought of something that i've never thought before; botak. like seriously? botak? haha
long story short, aku pun suruh barber tu potong mesin tapak tiga. ok this isn't the kind of botak licin tu. i'm not applying untuk jadi sami. so, that's it la. now aku botak. and it looks weird weird weird. and funny. haha. setiap kali tengok cermin aku rasa macam tengok orang lain. so weird. haha
and everytime keluar rumah aku akan pakai cap. sem baru nak start in less than 2 weeks. hopefully by that time my hair will grow longer so aku tak la nampak funny datang kuliah. unless la kalau boleh pakai cap pegi lecture class kan. haha. boleh ke?!

and here's a daily quote (not even related to this post). have a nice day! :)

Sabah Trip

Sabah Trip 4SMI, 21/01/13 - 24/01/13

On the first day, kitorang depart dari airport Senai around 9.30 pm. Then sampai airport KK, ada orang tunggu untuk fetch kitorang pergi ke apartment.

Lepas dah letak-letak barang, kitorang pegi waterfront untuk isi perut. Jauu gak jalan kaki dari apartment ke situ~ tapi never mind la, makanan punya pasal. Kuey teow goreng basah kat situ memang terbaik. Banyak sotong ngan udang. Lepas dah kenyang, balik tido~

Then the next day, kitorang bangun pukul 5.30 pagi. Siap-siap, mandi, and breakfast nasi lemak dengan teh tarik kat mamak.

Today's plan is Kinabalu Park and Hot Spring. Perjalanan sangat laa lama and jauu. Kitorang pergi dengan van.

Masa dah naik bukit tu boleh nampak gunung Kinabalu, tanah tinggi, hutan and cerun bukit. Udara kat situ sangat refreshing. Even matahari dah terpacak pun, tapi still rasa sejuk. Kalau duduk situ rasa nya memang tak payah kipas dengan aircond dah.

Then sampai at Kinabalu Park. Pemandangan memang lawa sangat lah. Tak jumpa kat KL or JB.

Lepas tu kitorang headed to Poring Hot Spring. Before that lunch dulu. Makanan dah disediakan. So kitorang tak payah la cari tempat makan. The first thing yang aku rasa is the tea. Pahit, dan kelat. or maybe lidah aku tak ngam kot dengan rasa ni *sigh* Why u don't serve air masak je.

Then they serve satu benda ni. Macam soup, lepas tu ade jagung. Bau je dah memang sedap. So aku try hirup satu sudu, and then.... Pfffff!! Rasa dia cuma dapat digambarkan oleh reaksi muka je. Weird. Then aku tengok orang lain makan elok je. So mungkin aku overreact kot. Itu lah yang terjadi kalau expectation tinggi sangat. Maybe the taste not sooo bad. Jadi aku pun try la rasa lagi... and I stand corrected! Rasa die memang tak masuk dengan tekak aku ini. So that's it la. Aku tak sentuh dah benda tu. Luckily diorang ada serve sayur, fish, ayam and telur taufu jugak. Kalau tak dah kebulur time tu.

After lunch, kitorang ke Poring Hot Spring. Kawasan ni ada banyak perigi air panas untuk rendam-rendam kaki. Tapi aku tengok ada foreigner ni siap berhibernasi lagi kat dalam perigi tu. *sigh* Foreigner.....

After dah spa kaki, kitorang masuk canopy walk. It is a kind of jambatan gantung. Nak sampai ke jambatan tu pn dah ambil masa. Tak pasal-pasal kena treking. Dah la pakai jeans.

Tapi memang worth it bila dah naik canopy walk tu. Plus aku ni bukan jenis yang gayat sangat.

Lepas Hot Spring, kitorang ke Rumah Terbalik. Tapi tak masuk pn... Sebab kena bayar. So kitorang tengok dari luar je. And rumah tu betul-betul terbalik! Kereta yang parking depan rumah tu pun terbalik. Selamat la orang yang masuk kat dalam tu tak terbalik sekali.

After that, kitorang balik ke apartment. Masing-masing semua dah exhausted.

Malam tu, kitorang ke Centerpoint yang situated betul-betul depan our apartment. Then dinner kat situ. Aku makan nasi putih, telur taufu and ikan sweet sour. Dah serik nak merasa makanan pelik-pelik since that sup jagung tu.

After that, beli barang-barang untuk masak lunch besok and then balik tido.

The next day bangun pagi and then siap-siap. Girls masak nasi goreng for lunch nanti and yang lain mandi kat swimming pool. Today kitorang akan pergi 3 pulau untuk snorkelling. New experience nih pasal aku tak pernah snorkelling pn sebelum ni.

Then kitorang gather and ada brader jemput kitorang naik bot. Aku rasa naik bot lagi best daripada naik flight. Kalau boleh la, aku prefer naik bot balik semenanjung daripada naik flight. Haha

Our first destination is Pulau Mamutik. Sampai je, kitorang change pakaian and then snorkelling. Aku ni dah la first time snorkelling. Then tak ada parental guidance plak. So blur je masa tu... Then bila tengok budak-budak ni seronok je, baru la taw senang je snorkelling ni.

Dekat situ boleh nampak clear ikan-ikan, batu karang and dasar laut. Bunyi macam dalam je kan... Tapi tak pun. Paras dada aku je. Cuma kalau berjalan tu sakit la pasal banyak batu karang.

Lepas dah puas snorkelling, then kitorang naik bot ke next island - Pulau Manukan. Sampai je, kitorang lunch dulu. After lunch, kitorang berendam lagi. Mana tak buncit macam ni. Laut kat Pulau Manukan ni tak clear macam Pulan Mamutik. Tak nampak apa-apa pn kalau snorkelling. So kitorang berenang-renang je kat situ. Pulau ni kotor. Air keruh. Pastu ada pulak used diapers terapung kat situ *facepalm*

Kitorang tak lama pun kat Pulau Manukan pasal nothing special kat sini. Next, kitorang bergerak to the last pulau, Pulau Sapi. Paling best bila naik bot nak ke pulau ni. Ombak kuat sangat sampai nak terpelanting bot. Banyak kali dah terhentak. Tapi best la. Haha. Dekat Pulau Sapi, aku dah tak berendam dah. Sejukkk~ Dah menggigil-gigil dah time tu. So aku bercanda di persisiran pantai je. Pulau ni sangat lawa. And sangat sesak. Ramai sangat kot orang kat sini. Diorang ni tak pergi kerja ke...

After about few hours kat pulau tu, and then waiting for our boat, kitorang pun pulang ke apartment. Semua muka pun dah penat and burn.

That night, kitorang keluar cari souveniers and dinner at Pasar Filipin. Our last dinner di Sabah, kitorang makan seafood - ikan bakar, udang and sotong. Aku pn rasa Terang Bulan or orang semenanjung panggil Apam Balik. Tapi Terang Bulan ni lagi sedap. Pastu rasa murtabak dia. Sedap~ Tambah-tambah lagi tengah lapar time tu.

After dinner, kitorang jalan-jalan dekat waterfront. Dekat situ sosial life tinggi. Malam-malam pun ade budak-budak remaja berpeleseran kat kawasan tu. So takde la sunyi sangat. Then kitorang balik ke apartment.

Last day at Sabah, kitorang bangun lambat pasal takde nak buat apa-apa. Cuma before pukul 12 kena check out. So kitorang lepak-lepak dalam apartment, breakfast, and tengok tv. Then pukul 1.30 pm kitorang bergerak ke airport. Flight pukul 3.45 pm.

Time dekat kastam tu, tiba-tiba ada la satu incident. Ade budak sorang ni hilang resit pelawat. FYI, resit ni kitorang dapat masa 1st day sampai kat airport KK and only untuk bukan Sabahan. Resit ni kena simpan sampai la kitorang nak tinggal kan Sabah. Then budak ni boleh plak terhilangkan resit tu. Kitorang pun risau la... Kalau tunggu dia, nanti ter-miss flight plak. So tinggalkan dia sorang-sorang la kat situ. Haha. But then, tibe-tibe dia terjumpa resit tu dalam saku sweater dia *double facepalm* Adoyai. Tapi apa-apa pn, semua selamat depart on time and selamat sampai di airport Senai.

END. Gonna miss that moment ;')